I grew up in a small town in a house on a hill surrounded by mountains. Looking out over the valley filled with small communities nestled within the trees, were the slopes which were dotted with houses. As I aged, the numbers grew. My community was small. Once it thrived as a close-knit family where everyone knew each other. Now, since many from other communities have moved in, the heart beats slower each day. The faces grow different and distant each passing year. My grandmother once knew every child in our community; now she knows only a few.
Things and times change. Change is as inevitable as the rising of the sun or the movement of time. As a matter of fact, all of these activities require change for them to occur and be constant. Change can be messy and perfectly neat. Change can occur in so many forms. Yes there are constants, but things never remain the same. Change is the driving force of this universe. There is no balance or chaos without change. We must accept and embrace change.
I’ve accepted that my hometown will never be the same as I remember it. I’ve accepted that the faces and buildings I’ll see while walking from my childhood home to the corner store will always be different. I love my hometown, and I will continue to love it in-spite of the change and because of the change.
In loving my hometown, and my house on the hill, I have grown to love the open. Roaming through the fruit trees in my back and front yard or sitting under the huge orange tree at the front of my house has always grounded me. It provides a sense of peace, a sense of pride, a sense of belonging to the land.
I love nature. I love roaming through gardens and forests. I love the songs of birds and rustling of leaves with a gentle breeze which lifts the hairs on your skin oh so gently. I love the glistening of my skin in the sunshine as the rays pierce through the canopy of the trees to caress me. I love the curiosity of the animals as they scurry, hide and observe as you explore their home.
I want to buy the land to reclaim the value and the meaning. I want the land for my family. I want the land for my peace of mind.
I would love to have a farm. A few animals, a few plots for crops, some trees and a lake. During recent times it has become clear to me that I need to be involved in some form of physical work to offset the exhaust caused by constant academic pursuits. I want to get my hands dirty. I want to feel a sense of accomplishment when I harvest my crops and watch them grow. It’s important for me to feel connected to the land because of my rural backgrounds.
There is a limited amount of land available on this earth, so it is one of the best investments because they aren’t making any more of it. I want my children and grandchildren and great-grandchildren and all subsequent generations to have a place of their own in the world. I want them to branch out and explore, but still have a small place where their heart resides and they’ll always feel welcome, loved and at peace.
I want the land as my fore-mothers have wanted it. I need the land for me.
A few months back, I received an email from Sephora about open spots for their beauty subscription box. I rarely ever wear makeup and my skincare routine is very simple, so I usually don’t sign up for beauty subscription boxes. Especially since I’ve been on a strict budget for the past couple of months, I, shopaholic extraordinaire, tried to stay away from all of the shops both online and physical. Now that I can loosen my purse strings a little, I’ve been exploring all of the shops and feasting my eyes. This box first drew my attention because it is so inexpensive, only $10! I’ve gotten it for 2 months now, and I want to share this little bit of joy with you!
When they have open spots, you are able to subscribe and begin receiving boxes with free shipping. You create a PLAY! PROFILE where you answer questions about your skin, makeup and skincare preferences which they will use to curate your boxes. p.s. They only ship to the US. They usually charge your card within the first few days of the month, and your bow will arrive by the second week of the month.
The box comes with 5 beauty samples either hair products, makeup or skincare and a monthly fragrance bonus item all in a theme specific collectible bag every month.
They have a video for each month detailing how to use the products.
There is a little booklet which has how-tos and product info with a play pass which you can redeem in store for 50 bonus Beauty Insider points and a free one-on-one tutorial.
They also have PLAY! DATES which are monthly meetups to teach you how to get the most out of the products in your box.
Here are the beauty bits I received this month!
I loved this months box! Can’t wait to try out these bits and see how they work for me!
Here’s the booklet from last month’s box which was also bomb!
If you want to try out some new beauty bits and you don’t want to invest in full size items, this box is perfect for you! They have wonderfully curated items which have been a hit for me so far!
See if they have any openings left here!
Be happy and well my beautiful friends!!
I’m trying to be more consistent with posting. Things have been changing in my life emotionally, work-wise, school-wise and otherwise so I’m working on being on a schedule to have everything run smoothly.
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I love and appreciate all of you, and am so grateful to be able to share my many musings with you!
YouTube has become my preferred distributor of entertainment for the past few months. All throughout college, Netflix had served as my most beloved plug to waste away my time when I should have been studying. I think I’ve reached an impasse. I’ve watched the exciting movies and tv shows. I’ve watched the documentaries. I’ve watched the cartoons. I feel as though I’ve watched it all. I know I haven’t, but that’s the feeling I have. Somehow my love for Netflix has soured and turned my favorite into my second choice.
Maybe it’s because I feel more connected to the people in YouTube videos. It’s like having a conversation where they send you videos and you send yours back, but you don’t actually send them videos. In your mind, and sometimes out loud, you reply. It’d be creepy if you sent them videos.
Maybe it’s because I don’t have to commit to a 1.5 to 2 hr long movie. Even though I love long vlogs that I can put on and work to, I prefer shorter videos that are beautifully edited or filled with impactful content. Sometimes a little video of your daily happenings can be so beautiful if you string the scenes or angles together with a good bit of computer work.
My latest clutch has been Sha’an of Furry Little Peach because her videos provide tons of inspiration for a creative mind. I’ve noticed that since I’m so inspired there has been some transference of thought. It’s as if I’m so inspired that I think I can create in the same way she can, but I can’t. She is an amazing illustrator, and I am not.
It’s important to accept inspiration, but be able to discern ability. Do what you have the ability to do.
Try new things, and work with what works best for you.
the leaves outside my window fade
green leaches from the veins
replaced by red orange yellow
structure suffers decays
colder and colder still
downpour rinses stems and leaves
green stalks now ripe with age
prepare for incoming frost
leaves shake goodbye to tree and trunk
lifeless limp leaves rain upon damp earth
now covered by dead foliage
I wrote this all in one go. As the thoughts formed in my brain, I wrote them down. I want to share this private conversation I had in my mind with you.
I really want to have the apartment downtown, close to school, but I can’t afford it. I try to be honest with myself, but my wants and desires are stronger than my will for control.
I want to move out and be on my own like the many people who say they moved out early and made it work. I want to go through the struggle of not having much, but having the freedom of living alone. I’m not much for responsibility, but I want the responsibility of having a small home away from home. A way for me to test out living on my own. My grandma stayed at home, my mom stayed at home, I don’t want to stay at home. I want to break free from the generational hold and find new ground to explore. To set new standards.
I want the apartment close to school so I can be at peace knowing I don’t have an hour to 1.5 hrs commute to get back home. I want to not worry about how I’m going to get home when I need to stay at school to study or work or practice or just participate. All my life I’ve lived far from my educational institutions. I’ve never participated as much as I wanted or could have. Never lived up to my full potential in that aspect. I’m 21 years old, years young. I want to release myself from the shackles of the constant commute so that I am able to focus on excelling and not how I’ll make it home that night or day or morning.
I need the apartment for my own well-being. But I can’t afford that apartment. I can’t afford school, but I still apply because I need it for my future. I need this apartment so I have to figure out how to get it.